Boredom

Man....this whole week really sucks like hell...I am so freaking bored. Physics test tomorrow, and my stupid computer studies teacher gave us assignment during the holidays! We don't have to study during the holidays meh....she thinks all of us are too damn free......

Assignment, 5-man in a team. The topic? Some big shot in the computer world that left their footprints. I've done 90% of the assignment, the remaining 10%, I'll leave it to my teammates or else it wouldn't be a group work.

The finals are drawing closer and closer, and I have yet to get a grip on my studies. I cannot afford to  score poorly in my first test. Physics test tomorrow, and Computer Studies test on wednesday. There is a new game which I wanted to play! BUT, I have all these exams over me. Need to endure the temptations first.

Things don't really seem to be going so well for me now. Constantly under stress, and when I am under stress, my Signus kicks in. Signus are very irritating, for anyone who knows a cure to it, please let me know. I can't take it anymore!!

Going back to university tomorrow......after a week long holiday, I'll see my friends again, and perhaps attend the Mooncake Festival Party on 1st October....see my mood how first, if I was emo-ing cause it did too badly for my test, then, maybe I won't go.

Till next week....bye bye...

Sunday Outing....

*UPDATES*

-More photoes...took from Wei Ming~

Last Sunday, I went out with my pals, now only I update. I was waiting for the pictures from Wei Ming, but without success, I did not manage to get my hands on them.  Nevermind la, get back to the basics first. Time for an old-fashioned story telling session.

Once upon a time.....this isn't working for me......not my way....I'll get to the point.....

Last Sunday, Chiew Foong apparently gathered the old crew back for abit of yam cha session. But this was no ordinary yam cha!! Why?? Because, we are eating shaved ice inMill Wheel Ice Cafe at 9pm?!! We must going out of our minds, nevermind, only once in a blue moon!! Anyway, lets see who was there...erm...me, Wei Ming, Wai Yan, Piak Hong, Wai Kie, Si Mun, Tian Ai and Vone Deng. Yeap, thats all of it...

Wei Ming was the chauffeur for that night's event. A big THANK YOU to him, and lets be done with it. Ok, he drove his mom's Unser to fetch,  Wai Kie, me, Wai Yan, Chiew Foong and Piak Hong to the cafe.

Mr. Chauffeur, haha!!

Anyway, go there do what? Oh course chit chat and eat la, what else? Talk talk until so shiock, the shop also very noisy!!

OMG?! WHOSE LEG??!! ITS A WHOLE BLACK FOREST!!

Everyone talked until so happy, to catch up on old times sake. Man, I really miss the old days.... no worries or what so ever....no time to look back at past, the vast future is ahead of us!! After eating the shaved ice, someone proposed to watch a late night movie in IOI, I was like, "here we go again....". Everytime we got an outing, nothing really goes according to plan, there is always last minute or on the spot proposals!! Can really giv heart attack one you know!! But, in the end, that is what so fun going out with those guys....

Well, Piak Hong, and Wai Yan can't go while I choose not to go. So, Wei Ming, and Wai Kie also din go, since Wei Ming bears the responsibility of the "Ah Mat" a.k.a driver. However, as the other group goes and watch G-Force, we took a night stroll around Puchong Jaya. We went to a cliff, nice, quiet, and beautiful too.....relax and chill abit there...took some pictures too~

The night view....

My camera ain't all the good. Handphone quality only!

Anyway, that was not the end of it, after night viewing, we wentdown to Bandar Putri for the heck of it and then, the plan struck us that we'll eat at the small "steamboat lorry". 

This was what I meant....

They seem to be enjoying it...

That's all folks!!

Note: I updated my blog already, no more complains right? =P

Updates...

Its been quite a while since I left it dead. Got nothing much to talk about....

Updates in my life:-

-I got my YTN loan approved.

-I did my Calculus Test 2

-My class pissed off our Computer Studies teacher

-I did badly for my Physics Quiz

-I am going to cry when I discussed my Calculus Test 2 with my teacher

YTN loan approved, good for me lo. Now don't have to burden my parents with the tutor fees in UniTEN. They offered me RM 90, 000 and I get

-RM 6000 per year as allowance (RM 500 a month)

-RM 600 per year to buy my text books

-0% interest rates (pay for what you have used)

-Chance to convert the loan into scholarship

The loan was OK, just the forms are costly.......

Next up, I did my Calculus Test 2, oh my god! I'll never forget that day. What a luck, 1 hour before the exam I fell seriously ill. My flu was out of control and I have to go to the library to take the exam. Damn it was cold. My brain froze and I couldn't think.

Then, my class pissed off our Computer Studies teacher. She keep on saying "I'm not mad" when she is shouting at us. How can that not be mad? Her actions spoke louder than her words. Why was she mad? It is due to the low marks we gave her for evaluation while other classes gave me a relatively good mark. How can she blame us? She told us to be honest right!! In my opinion, the other classes are only polishing her shoes, sweet talking, bodek, etc etc, any words you can think of. There is a HUGE difference bewteen being nice and strict, evil and lenient.

I choose to be nice and strict. SO, the evaluation I gave her was very strict, I am not the kind of person who goes soft. It was not only me, but the whole chinese people in my class did that!! The disability to keep her word, stuck up attitude and failure to appear in class on time gave me a good reason to give her a low mark. Moreover, she said the she was not very good at teaching on her first class with us. So, how can I give a high rating to someone who doesn't even have confident in herself? She told us that she would give us our first assignment on 31st August, till now, we got nothing, how can I not revolt? Being a man of punctuality, I ain't forgiving such a small thing.

This is absurd, if she fears for low evaluation marks, next time, don't give us the fucking papers! Best Teacher Award for 08/09 kononnya, MY FOOT LA! Don't expect every students to lick your shoes. I HAVE MY OWN DIGNITY!

Yesterday, 15/09/09 was my Physics Quiz 3. Thank god I studied with 2 more of my housemates till 1am in a cafe or else I would be blank! But still, I did wrongly...wrong application of physics theorm. Damn....

At the same day, I went for my Calculus tutorial, my teacher, Ms. Carolyn discussed about our test papers with us. It was really shocking!!! I am losing confidence alerady!! This is dangerous!!

Anyway, yesterday was She-Reen's birthday while today is Alvin's....yawnz...time to sleep...

If I Could Turn Back Time....

If I could turn back time, I wouldn't mind going through SPM over again, I would mind sitting for Form 4 final exam over again, I wouldn't mind sitting for PMR over again. As long as I can tell her how I felt that time. I was a fool that time, I was naive, I was stupid and I was an idiot for letting all the time I could have done it slipped past through my fingers.

But now, it is all too late, I have lost my chances, I too have lost my confidence. How hard is it to let go something important? How long will I continue to be a fool, naive, stupid and idiotic? How long till I can deprive myself of my emotions?

With YTN loan pressure now hanging upon me, the load have increased. I do not know how long I can last nor when I will crack. My time to fool around is limited. Time never cease going forward, it never stops. I too wish I can move onwards, I am pulling myself backwards. 

One thing I learned from this experience, love is an illusion created by the heart of human in the wish for companionship. As long as I can eliminate the feelings for companionship, I can eradicate my feelings of love.

I know you are always reading my posts. Therefore, I want you to know, that no matter what, you are still someone irreplaceable to me. When times get hard for you, I will ALWAYS be there for you, I swear it on my blood....

To hell with my feelings.....farewell.....

I Found My Answer....

On 3rd of September which was a Thursday, apparently, my Uniten Buddhist Fellowship (UBF) seniors took us, the members of UBF for a trip to Universiti Kebangsaan Malaysia (UKM)!!!! Well, I din't tell my parents about the trip and I just went on my own accord, so that makes me a bad boy right? 

Anyway, I am usually exhausted on Thursday, so my class finished at 4pm, went back to the hostel around 4.30pm during that time, if I am not mistaken, I was still sms-ing with Jo Nie, then I got knocked out. Too tired already I guess. Woke up around 6.00pm and I must get ready to go out already, as my UBF buddies are going out to eat. There is nothing wrong going out with my seniors, mark my words, they are all VERY nice people!!

Ker Jing, my housemate, Ker Jia's brother came to pick me, Ker Jia, Ming Kang and Chee Kong from our hostel. Too bad we first years cannot drive in Uniten, have to rely on our seniors. Anyway, we met up with half of the UBF members at the library before we drove off to a food court in Sungai Chua to meet up with everybody.

Ok, I kinda regreted I did not take any photoes when we were eating, I guess I was to busy eating and talking about the imbecile concept of 1 Malaysia and politics. Anyway, I was in the food court, and there was not really a variety food there, so of all the things, I went over to the Tai Chao, and ordered a plate of Kung Fu Yin Yong (Sorry for very bad ping ying). It cost me RM 4.50, and ok la, it was quite big also, better compared to the rest of the hawker stalls.

Finish eating already? We better be! It was already 7.00pm+ during we finished, and we were suppose to be at UKM at 7.30pm. Oh well, it is the Malaysian style to be late. MALAYSIA BOLEH!! When I reach UKM, I was like OH MY GOD!! It is all kinda cramped up, building left and right of me!! When compared to Uniten, it is certainly much more cramped while Uniten is more spacious, there are greeneries everywhere. Most importantly, I am very dumbfounded when I found this in UKM...

HOLY S**T!!! It is a Maggi Mee Cup Noodles vending machine!!!! You wouldn't find one of those in Uniten!! I swear!! After so long wondering in my life, 18 years 4 days I HAVE NEVER SEEN SUCH A VENDING MACHINE!!! I WANT ONE IN UNITEN ALSO!! MAKES SUPPER EASIER!!!

Oh well, enough with my stupidity!! Get on with the main event!! We, from Uniten proceed to the theater where the event was going to be held. It was 8.00pm when we reached there and I thought we were late! How I knew, that they practiced the Malaysia culture of lateness also!! Once again, MALAYSIA BOLEH!!! Anyway, the event started approximately 8.30pm like that, indeed the Malaysian culture. Anyway, enough with it...presenting the MC of the night...

Kinda forgotten what was his name, I am always bad at remember people's name! That is my biggest weakness in socializing. Unless it is pretty girls then you cannot blame me for it. The speaker of the night was brother Chong,

He is also not very young already, but he is an ex-UKM student

Anyway, to continue on with my story, I kinda regretted I went to this event, but at the same time, I felt glad that I went. Why would I regret? Because, when he touched the topic about love, he made me remember my painful past, my past that I have always regretted. It is not something you would want to remember if you have it. Moreover, the lecture was really not meant for someone who is heart-broken. My heart throbbed of pain while he was talking, for some reason, my tears was at a brink of falling, but THANK GOD IT DIN'T FALL!!

But when he talked about what is important in our life, I came to a realization, I found my answer, I knew what must be done. No, I have not reach enlightment yet, but I am still seeking my path. I cannot leave my heart left in a darken state forever, I have to confront it and move on with life. But the only problem is how? How am I going to confront it? I was in a dillema until the lecture. All there is left to do, is confront her when the time is right. This is why I am glad I followed my seniors to UKM. I too must thank my friends for pressuring me to go when they knew there was a hole within me.

There was a song sang by the committee after every section of the talks. Oh well, out of the 6 or 7 songs sang, I only maange to stole 2 of them (cam rec). Anyway, I posted them on facebook. It's a hassle to post them here again anyway, so just go to my face book and see. Anyway, here are some pictures. 

Yesterday, 4th of September, it was a disasterous Friday. My PTPTN loan application form was in a mess!! When I was on my way to submit it, my dad called me, tell me that my Yayasan Tenaga Nasional (YTN) loan has been approved! I was really happy about it. I really must thank my prosperity cat which is now hanging on my phone for such luck. My luck seems to have changed with the prosperity cat around by my side. But everything has its ups and downs. Perhaps the success of my YTN requires a payment, a payment which made me......you know la.

Till next time, tata!